Doctor Who Fic

[dorsetgirl]

Title: I Win

Author: DorsetGirl

Fandom: Doctor Who

Disclaimer: I don’t own these characters or their universe, the BBC do. I’m not making any money out of this.

Word Count: 180

Notes: Gen or slash, depending on your viewpoint

Author’s Note: This is my first Doctor Who fanfic; I normally write Life on Mars. I wanted to do something quite a lot longer than this, but I already have three long fics for Life on Mars eating my brain, so this is it for now.

 

 

I Win 

 

The physical pain is extraordinary for such a small wound. Such a neat wound: all the blood staying on the inside, warming my stomach. 

I feel myself lowered safely to the floor, held close by strong, trembling arms and I let go. 

So tired.

 

Happy Now?

 

 

 

You catch him before he falls. Hold tight that slim, taut body and lower him safely to the floor.

Ready to give him strength for the next stage. Ready to care for him and watch him forever. 

Ready to change your life for him.

 

I’ve Got You.

 

 

 

You can’t stop the shaken mind breaking open; can’t stop the broken madness slipping away. 

You didn’t expect his relief. You didn’t expect his triumph. 

You didn’t expect his death.

 

It Can’t End Like This.

 

 

 

The mental relief is incredible for such a huge wound. Such a messy wound: all the hurt and madness spilling out, cooling my mind at last. 

I feel myself falling into blessed silent darkness, as the fading, maddening drums batter the weak, trembling face. 

I live at last.

 

I Win.

 

Comments

[hambelandjemima.livejournal.com]

I hadn't seen this before. I was snooping around your journal looking for fanfic - hope you don't mind :D

The comparison between the small, physical wound and the larger, emotional wound is lovely, and something I haven't seen before.

Emotional stuff... and now I'm not quite so annoyed with the Master for dying on the Doctor like that.

You definitely win :)

[dorsetgirl.livejournal.com]

No, of course I don't mind! (although the whole LJ thing - private diary / public forum - does take a bit of getting used to, doesn't it).

I'm really pleased that you liked it. I wasn't very happy with it, I had a lot more going on in my head than I could get on the page, but I think I was very invested in finishing "Real Men Don't" at the time, and I couldn't get into this properly.

This is the only one which isn't posted anywhere else; I did join LJ-Saxon Voters, but weirdly enough simply couldn't work out how to post anything there. Then I forgot all about it, so your comment came as a lovely surprise. Thank you!